30 things I love

30: Putting your towel on a radiator so when you get out of the shower you wont be cold

29: Your friends loaning you money and never asking for it back

28: The cold side of a pillow

27: Someone telling you they had a dream about you

26: That one pair of jeans that goes with anything

25: Great hair days

24: Making a baby laugh

23: That pat on the shoulder that means "Im proud of you"

22: Winning a small match of football

21: Crying with laughter

20: Getting the "I like you too" text back

19: Tickle fights

18: Number 19's that lead to more

17: Good aftershave/perfume

16: Inside Jokes

15: Joke insults between friends

14: Having someone say "Its not the same without you"

13: Feeling appreciated

12: Proving someone wrong

11: Someone backing you up in an argument

10: Sleeping in your own bed after a long holiday

9: That one person who never judges

8: The "Spark"

7: Waking up beside someone

6: Ice cram

5: Glee

4: Believing in everything

3: Being "The Stupid One"

2: Laughing so much you make no noise

1: Smiling to yourself because as it stands, right now, every thing is perfect.

22:23 Such an odd name for a title but any who, it is!

Hello again!

I havent wrote in this for a while but seeing as Im going through a bit of a

rough patch

I think I might pick it up again!

First of all, Easter is soon! Which means a lot of chocolate and weight we really dont want but sure feck it

we can get surgery when we're famous.

I suppose my lifes took a turn, not for the worst, and not for the best either purely because I dont know where Im standing or facing at the moment.

Have you ever had such a great streak in life, everythngs going good, everything and your so far up in the clouds you dont realise that your feet have left the ground? Then, with a bang, you smack down into the gutter.

Thats what happened to me.

I thought Id never have to push for something, it would just fall naturally. I know thats naive but I honestly thought thats how it would be for me.

Obviously, I was wrong.

So to help me in this particular conundrum in my life Ive decided to take a breather to finally see where I stand and how I feel on everything, but honestly? Its doing nothing!

I dont know what I want, I dont know where I am, I still know know if Im running or walking, if Im taking it serious or light hearted, if Im happy or longing or if Im scared of the what if?

What I do know is that Im here, alone, and its real.

and Im afraid that thats what I want.