The Horrible Truth

I don't want to blog about my love life because that's personal and everyone's situation is different. No one can take advice and have it being the right one because no one can know exactly how the other feels, or what they want...they're only giving a factual help, which makes me wonder, can anyone actually help when you're love life is in trouble? I think the answer is no, but we're all too scared to admit it. So we nod and comfort each other saying what we can, knowing full well

We can't help at all.

I hate shaving

Let the jury know, that this blog will not be about me and my shaving history, it was merely a thought that jumped into my head...I just realised how odd that is

Moving on!

Summer is here for all those who are in college, and being honest,

Its bloody brilliant!

I have a to do list for this summer(don't laugh, it's common) and tomorrow it shall be under way

1: Join a Gym (or at least head back to my old one)

I really want to be fit again and I think, as everyone does, that this is the best way. Im tired of wearing t-shirts and them not ripping when I flex, but then again

aren't we all?

2:Join a Beginners Fencing Club

I've always been interested in it and I hear its great for competitive people. Me being the person who can sometimes enter

the mode

during a game, kinda needs an outlet like this, so I honestly can't wait!

I'll keep you updated

(You being cyber space)

and as the kid from the corner house once told me

"Fuck Off!"

Night Folks!

30 things I love

30: Putting your towel on a radiator so when you get out of the shower you wont be cold

29: Your friends loaning you money and never asking for it back

28: The cold side of a pillow

27: Someone telling you they had a dream about you

26: That one pair of jeans that goes with anything

25: Great hair days

24: Making a baby laugh

23: That pat on the shoulder that means "Im proud of you"

22: Winning a small match of football

21: Crying with laughter

20: Getting the "I like you too" text back

19: Tickle fights

18: Number 19's that lead to more

17: Good aftershave/perfume

16: Inside Jokes

15: Joke insults between friends

14: Having someone say "Its not the same without you"

13: Feeling appreciated

12: Proving someone wrong

11: Someone backing you up in an argument

10: Sleeping in your own bed after a long holiday

9: That one person who never judges

8: The "Spark"

7: Waking up beside someone

6: Ice cram

5: Glee

4: Believing in everything

3: Being "The Stupid One"

2: Laughing so much you make no noise

1: Smiling to yourself because as it stands, right now, every thing is perfect.

22:23 Such an odd name for a title but any who, it is!

Hello again!

I havent wrote in this for a while but seeing as Im going through a bit of a

rough patch

I think I might pick it up again!

First of all, Easter is soon! Which means a lot of chocolate and weight we really dont want but sure feck it

we can get surgery when we're famous.

I suppose my lifes took a turn, not for the worst, and not for the best either purely because I dont know where Im standing or facing at the moment.

Have you ever had such a great streak in life, everythngs going good, everything and your so far up in the clouds you dont realise that your feet have left the ground? Then, with a bang, you smack down into the gutter.

Thats what happened to me.

I thought Id never have to push for something, it would just fall naturally. I know thats naive but I honestly thought thats how it would be for me.

Obviously, I was wrong.

So to help me in this particular conundrum in my life Ive decided to take a breather to finally see where I stand and how I feel on everything, but honestly? Its doing nothing!

I dont know what I want, I dont know where I am, I still know know if Im running or walking, if Im taking it serious or light hearted, if Im happy or longing or if Im scared of the what if?

What I do know is that Im here, alone, and its real.

and Im afraid that thats what I want.

A Note To My 16 Year Old Self

Hello Shitface!

I know you'll find that funny because, well your me! Anyway, Happy Birthday! I now the party wasn't really...the best and you didnt want it but hey, better then nothing right? Oh, and dont get your hopes up, Disney Land isnt happening...amazing what drink can make you say!

Right, well, all I can say is, at 19, your life has taken a MAJOR change, one being the people who are now in it!

I think you know who I mean when I say, shes backstabbed you again, bitched,again and, of course, cried for attention, again! I wont say the name but you know who. But get this, you know the way she has all her mates?

Their gone now! Yeh, they copped on to what shes like and as for her rents? (Thats slang for parents, you say that now! :D) no one is talking to them. Not over a fight, just them being themselves.

Moving on.

Rhiannon? You've gotten closer to her and now that shes allowed to drink, Paul, the craic is HILARIOUS!

Expect drunken nights in a free house!

I also have amazing news. You know that friend who you thought you would never get back? The one who was actually someone elses fault and you always thought she hated you, eh, yeh.

Your back mates! Doesnt hate you at all and felt the same! Dude! Way better!

As for Lorcan, I know yous are having a major fight being in 4th year but you kinda need it, for one,

That douche who he hangs with now? There will be drama with him and he'll fall, obviously. Dope, you hate him more now by the way! And second, to change your attitude.

Im going to be honest, yeh, it was funny being the dickhead and the way you acted but Im telling you now, stop it.

At 19, your majorly different and although your now known as "The Loveable Dickhead" just, dont be too much of one, ok? Cool amigo! :)

What I can also say is things at home change. In 6th year (Your going to hate it, but you get the course you want ;D) it got all too much for you. Home (you know what Im talking about) and pressure in school got too much and you tried (and failed lol) to make a run for it by running away. Now, what you thought you were doing with a tenner to get a bus "somewhere" I dont know but you go home and you sort it out. It gets sorted but for a while. Just do me a favour, if something pisses you off, say it, you will not BELIEVE the difference!

Oh yeh, you get confidence compadre ;)

Guitar? PFFFT Your really good at it now! And although one in particular puts you down everyone else says your good so you did it! :)

So you do your Leaving Cert and get your results, you have a SHIT results night but you didnt really want to go out. My advice...dont lol!

Your course is Creative Digital Media. Reason? Your actually pretty amazing at English and that sparks off your creative side with writing, from that your photography picks up and then graphic design and guess what kid, you find your course ;)

Dont worry about the first day. you meet LEGENDARY friends! On the first day! And on the first night out with them you have an unreal time (but the hangover is worse then anything you can imagine...worth it though!)

I dont want to ruin anything else for you because the twists and turns are bad but good and having them all as a surprise is a bitch, but worth it all the same :)

So good luck with the Leaving, good luck with Tae Kwon Do! (Try keep it up! :( ) and dont worry, that weird guy in school DOESNT kill everyone on graduation lol.

Signing off, your future (much more) goodlooking self,

Paul

P.S

MICHELLE HAS TWINS!!!!!!

Last Year Before The Supposedly End Of The World

So tonight we all drink, laugh and party the last day of 2010.

Can't say Im sad to see it go. 2010 was probably a rough year for myself and others with cuts, losses and among other things. But I've decided 2011 will be my year! Simply because I'm following one rule,

Not to give a fuck

I've stressed 2010 with everything. People, money, education the lot and I seriously dont know why.

The people weren't worth it and they didn't deserve to be thought over and as for the money, well, it turns up somehow.

Also this year I've decided I'm going to do something I never thought I would ever say

Try and settle down.

Im kind of sick of just going out with random people, just for flings and not really getting anything out of it. It was fun I'll admit but honestly it's a bit empty.

So 2011, prepare. Theres a new Paul coming.

And he takes two sugars in his tea.

Its beginning to look a lot like mayhem!

Jesus's birthday falls on the 25th of December. A date all Christians pray and are willing/giving to others.

Wrong.

I was just in my city center to get some last minute shopping and I have never seen so many people run,dash,pull,push,kick,stab,set alight, explode...ok so the last ones are exaggerated but you see my point!

Why all the..well, war tactics!?

In fairness if you left it this late should you not blame other people? This was your fault. And yes I know the snow has made it worse and all that other stuff you have going on really had to be dealt with but, every year, on the 25th of December, without fail, Christmas comes!

So work around it!

I think I only did this blog because a certain guy shoved into me and shouted in the most polite manner

"WATCH EH!!!!"

I saw red

But didn't have time to say anything as he ran off!

Anyway, Ill go now, my ranting is kind of drifting and I'm in the need of a cup of tea

Until next time

Pat yourself on the back for me,

Paul